Alright - I admit it. I watched Twilight for the first time last night and I have become totally obsessed. I mean I totally thought I would enjoy the movie, but somehow it sucked me in and I find myself thinking of it constantly. Strange that it should affect me so today, of all days. My grandpa’s ashes were scattered today and I was not able to attend. My kids and husband are sick. I’m not even feeling so well myself, for various reasons, yet this movie has me transfixed. I have always loved vampires, and even did role play in high school. I have watched just about every movie with vampires I have come across. But THIS movie has moved me, and the strangest thing is, I don’t know how, yet it is profound. I MUST have the movie, I MUST see the next ones, I MUST read the books. I even want to go back and visit Forks and the Olypmic Peninsula, a place I have not been in years - maybe 6 or more. Somehow I have fallen in love with Washington, a place I moved to 15 years ago and lothed every day since. It even stirs the embers of the dream I had as a child - to be an actress, to have the power to create this feeling in others, to push the boundaries, and create from within. How can just one movie - two hours and two minutes of my life - create such a movement within me? Have I fallen prey to commercialism, become brainwashed into following the popular culture? I don’t know but I have found my vary own brand of heroine and I want more :[
